Do you ever go back and read your old blog posts? I do it every so often and it’s fascinating remembering the emotions behind the posts. One post in particular stuck with me and that was published in early January 2012 and was a review of what had happened in 2011.
Part of the reason it stuck with me was the sense of excitement and enthusiasm that comes across in the words. At that time I was a dad to Matilda and the lady of the manor was 3 months pregnant with Henry. We’d been on holiday to New Zealand a couple of months before and had just celebrated our first Christmas as a family.
The tone of that post worried me a little which may seem an odd reaction, but it’s because I don’t feel quite so excited and enthusiastic now. I feel weary and worn out, slumping into the sofa each evening happy to have successfully made it through the day. I’m sure at least part of this is due to being ill and having mouth ulcers for the last 10 days so not enjoying Christmas as much, plus Matilda and Henry having been sick for the 2 weeks or so before that.
But there is definitely a part of me a little freaked out that I’ve lost some of that enthusiasm and sense of adventure, something to think about in this time of setting resolutions. Looking back at the posts at that time it’s clear that a larger family has also changed my blogging, much fewer posts now and also I’m more likely to go a week or 2 with no post when there simply isn’t room in my head to write something. Nothing wrong with that but the first time I’ve really acknowledged that evolution. Life is certainly tougher 1 year on with 2 children under 2 and a busy job to juggle, I’m hoping that the move and much shorter commute will make a big difference to this.
2012 was a good year though with the big event and main highlight clearly being the birth of Henry, giving us a perfect set of one pink and one blue baby. Plus of course there was the big family holiday to France which was perhaps the start of a regular holiday destination for us? Then towards the end of the year we sold our house and found a new one to buy hopefully moving in February.
We of course celebrated Matilda’s 1st birthday and I turned 30 a week later giving us lots to celebrate, shortly after that Matilda took her first steps which I have to say has been the most magical moment of being a dad so far. Potentially even beyond the birth itself, that moment was just incredible seeing her figure it out and the excitement on her face. Now we have a chatting, laughing, crazy toddler and I love it.
From a blogging perspective winning the best dad blog at the BIB’s was incredible, I love blogging and writing so to be recognised for that gave me a massive confidence boost. It’s a shame that the timing of the awards was just after Henry was born so my motivation to be writing was at a low with all my energy consumed with supporting my new larger family.
But what about those resolutions from last year? Well actually I’ve done pretty well, aside from our mortgage we are now debt free which I have to say feels pretty bloody good. I also think I’ve done well with the eating, I’ve made a real effort to cut down on sugars and finding new and interesting veggie dishes to eat. Combined with the increased running I’ve lost over half a stone this year and feel 100% better for it.
For my running I’d only give myself half marks, it’s taken me a lot longer to get back running regularly with my back problems that started in 2011. Then with Henry being born there really wasn’t time to get out too often. Now though I feel good, running strong with no back pain at all. I even entered a race and have more planned for 2012 along with a big challenge, but more of that at a later date.
2013 is shaping up to be pretty quiet in comparison with just the small matter of moving into a fab family house in February if all goes well. However it may be the first year in 4 where we haven’t either had a baby or got a puppy which all sounds a little easy. Going to have to find someway to challenge ourselves I think. There is no big holiday planned due to spending all our money on moving so it looks like it could be a year for us to simply enjoy being a family. Fab.
Thank you to all of you who read this blog and chat with me on Twitter, it truly is a joy and I appreciate every one of you. Here’s to an awesome 2013.